Friday, July 15, 2005
where's my rainbow? i alwaes hear: aft the rain, there will always be a rainbow.. sad to sae, i have never once seen a rainbow in my life before.. its not that singapore dun rain right.. perhaps im jux not lucky enuf.. of i alwaes miss it.. or perhaps.. im jux not fated to see it...
but i've alwaes believed in the meaning behind tt saying.. you hafta brave the storms to overcome the obstacles.. and when u finally do, you will see a glimpse of hope and light.. until now..
i never thought tt i myself could be so serious.. alwaes tot of it as playing.. or jux merely enjoying myself.. but i din noe tt i was slowly sinking into a never-ending hole.. now.. im trying to climb out.. but.. wads the point? no one cares anymore.. so wad if i do climb out? i already lost it.. going out wid my friends jux seemed like a white piece of paper when it used to be colourful.. school used to be fun.. but now.. its a monotonous cycle.. where i so the same things.. and try to avoid the same things.. perhaps its jux me.. i dunno..
things will never be the same again.. no matter how hard i tried.. nothing seems to succeed.. this whole yr i have been a failure.. in friendships.. in studies.. in council.. in family.. in relationships.. in cca.. wad else can i do?
"help mi.. i dunno wad to do.. its like a dagger in my chest.." i took this from someone.. he moved on.. got a life.. being surrounded by girls.. and having the choice to choose.. and me? im still stuck here.. burrowing in the sorrows of the aftermath of it.. from the day it happened till today.. its been 7 months.. nothing's changed.. jux tt.. im no longer the same.....
Zinc @ 11:27 am
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