Saturday, August 21, 2004
A Sad Birthday..Happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me.. happy birthday to me..
U noe wad? I’m listening to “everytime” by britney spears..
“everytime I try to fly I’m bond without my wings
I feel so small
Guess I need you baby..
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face
U’re haunting me
Guess I need you baby..”
It relates.. I’ve nv had such a sad birthday before..
Everytime he sms me.. there’s bound to me something wrong.. I always thought that he wun rmb.. today was such an unlucky day.. bruno they all could not make it.. then when I was going to redeem the cookies.. he smsed me.. ya.. he rmb.. so wad? again.. he gave me hope but dashed it an hr later..
“happy burfdae!!! may u find ur lover soon!” with a picture msg attached
“thx.. tot u wun rmb..”
“wa… is this all I get?”
I tot he was soo sweet.. to say that.. I was so happi.. and so touched.. so I joked with him..
“hee.. haha.. okay la.. thank you okay!! Haha..u wan me to fly over 2 where u r n giv u a thank you gift? :D”
“no problem!”
then wanqin sae wan to see him.. so I sae I try.. I tot.. since it’s my bdae.. he will giv face.. so I asked..
“where are u now?”
“at home.. goin out soon.. u din go and celebrate?”
yes.. I did.. but not today.. u wanna noe wads the greatest way to celebrate? Taking juz a look at you and see how u have been over this miserable half a yr.. so I decided to try and pull his heartstrings..
“no la.. nobody to celebrate with.. den dun feel like going home..so I’m out alone.. haha.. u wanna cum n pei2 me? Or u busy ar?”
which obviously wasn’t true.. cuz wanqin was rite beside me.. and I gave my phone to her everytime I finished sending a msg.. u can say I’m superstitious.. or wadever.. but I to the wld definitely reply if she was holding it.. which proved me rite.. I really hoped tt he will sae yes..
“wad time will you be home?”
goodness knows why he go and ask me tt question.. so I tink he was not very free..
“??anytime le..”
I din really understand wad he was saying.. then I dun wan him to feel tt I’m still under my mum’s control.. so I ans tt..
“I can only make it after 6..”
u noe I wun be able to make it.. if u din wanna see me.. then fine.. dun say anything.. juz sae cannot.. anyway u have been liddat for so long.. spare me the misery on my bdae! Why dinch u do tt? U are so cruel.. but wanqin seems to be full of hope.. she ask me to ask him if he can make it now..
“I’m sick lehz.. erm.. can u make it now..”
he probably thinks its kind of an excuse.. cuz last time I was also sick.. but who cares..
“where are u? not for long k..”
hello.. this kind of tone.. might as well dun go la.. but I noe.. if I din go.. I’ll regret it for life..
“I’m in bugis.. where is it convenient for u?”
I shld not have asked tt.. shld have juz said where I am.. meanwhile.. I try to call my mum and ask for her advice.. but she surely sae no one lohz.. so late.. she was like.. where u wanna go? So late.. then how long do u plan to stay? At such a late time.. I dun feel safe.. so.. she ask me to go home first.. 6 o’clock? No go man..
“potong pasir will be very easy for me!”
the more I go into this conversation.. the more I feel tt he is juz playing with me.. he is not concerned for me at all.. why shld I bother? I really dunno.. why did I becum liddat?? Where is the me tt was full of confidence??
“wai.. u very cruel lehz.. one tt can be reachable by mrt la.. erm.. which other place?”
I cant believe tt I wld one day come to this stage.. like begging him liddat.. I hate myself..
“you can go to plaza sing and then take mrt to potong pasir wad.. make it quick hor..”
wad??? u wan me to go all the way there? Inconsiderate guy.. he doesn’t even care for me lohz.. why am I doing this? I shld be tyring my best to forget him!!
“take very long lehz.. toa payoh?”
“I cant leave potong paisr.. u wanna cum not? Quick..”
wad the..
“how long can u wait?”
both wanqin and I were thinking of the same question.. scarely he can only wait a few mins? Then he is giving me the mission impossible..
“less dan an hr..”
“if I dun reach there within an hr lehz?”
“dan I’m out lohz..”
wah kao..
I was running out of smses.. so I called him and said.. no, I’m not going.. I cant believe it.. he sounded like so bo liao when he ans the phone lohz.. that’s it.. I’m not gonna contact him again..
But I went home and asked mi mum if I could go.. but she said no..
At nite.. I told him I cant go cuz I was sick.. then he juz said take care..
Ya.. onli for today.. after this.. I will resume to my old self.. who’s wen kai? Nv heard before..
U noe.. today was real unlucky.. bruno and Vincent could not make it.. then u noe.. li jia wei din make it to the finals.. there goes our gold.. sigh.. izit cuz of me? I dunno.. I’m real sad now..
Zinc @ 11:25 pm
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