Friday, June 04, 2004
Finally Understood Thz Feeling..
Today started off very nicely.. was up by 8.30.. then left the house abit late but was still able to reach there 5 mins earlier.. although we could not find Peranakan Place Museum, we were able to go to Emerald Hill.. at first we were unable to get into ppl's houses to interview.. but finally, one lady let us into her house.. then subsequently.. we were able to go into other ppl's houses, like there was one which was actuallli a office cum residential area,.. then there was a man who had a peranakan house.. but his house was fully re-renovated.. so it din retain the peranakan features.. then there was another lady.. she and her dog answered the door.. the dog was cute.. then she was very friendly too. . wanteng and I went on the swing.. then I always warn them got car.. then they laugh.. dunno why oso..
We actually walk to emerald hill… then realise that the museum was not there.. then we walk out to orchard road.. then too far.. so we decided to walk back to emerald hill.. then while walking.. we were very hot.. so we bought an ice cream fr mcdonalds.. tastes sort of funny.. the ice cream was hard.. but still quite nice larhz.. then we went to take neoprints after wanting had eaten her lunch.. we wanted to go bowling.. but time too short and place too crowded.. then we went to take the knight bus.. then it was very fun.. then we realised that the restaurant that we were supposed to go to for lunch was closing at 2.30.. and it was already 1.30.. we still needed to take a mrt to paya lebar and take taxi.. so not enuf time le.. then in the end nv go.. went to shop at John Little.. then worried that I wld meet my mum.. cuz she said she will go there too.. in the end nv meet..
After that wanteng went off.. actually is we went off first.. we went to city hall.. then we went to the food junction to eat lunch.. minced meat noodle.. then walk to Asian Civilisation Museum.. then it was juz supposed to be a 5-min walk.. but we turned at the wrong place twice.. then go one big round.. then in the end landed up next to St andrew's cathedral.. then had to walk back.. then in the end found it.. then cannot use camera.. then had to copy everything.. then we walked back to city hall.. then we had ice-cream.. I had durain.. then Elaine had raspberry.. which she pronounced as ras-p-berry.. then we actuallli wanted to go to Suntec.. but we were still eating our ice-creams.. then we went back to Raffles City.. then we went to the food junction again.. this time we ate dim sum.. not really larhz.. cuz I had carrot cake and wanqin had spring roll.. not really very nice larhz.. then Elaine went to buy hot longan dessert.. wanqin had a grass jelly drink.. then they din wanna go home.. so I bought a char siew bao and ate slowly until it was time.. then we went off..
On the way.. me and my dumb mouth.. started talking abt the present I was going to give him.. then I started to miss him.. then on the mrt they say since I do miss him.. I shld sms him.. so I smsed that I need someone to talk to.. would u be that special someone.. please? Then he replied ya.. wad happened.. then I told him I call him at nite.. then he say at nite not free.. then I ask him why he always say he not free to me.. izit onli to me.. then Elaine added that I shld tell the truth.. then she help me type.. do u noe I lyk u!? at the end.. then he........ Said......... but I dun like u.. get it? I onli treat u as a god-sis..
I.. din have any feelings.. I grabbed my pillow.. then my big bear.. why izit that he onli tell mi now.. why did he drop those hints in the first place.. a tear dropped.. then wanqin called.. I din really wanna talk now.. so I told her tt.. then I mass mailed the 5 of them.. I told them wad happened and told them thst I dun really wanna talk now.. I dun have that feeling.. then Elaine smsed me saying that she will always be there for me.. I din noe why.. but once I saw that, I burst into tears.. I dun wanna give him the present anymore.. let Elaine do it.. I dun wanna give it anymore.. I dun wanna see him.. I shall juz take it that I have nv known him.. why?? Why din it be that that tym.. I din go on the cruise? I din go to langkawi? There’s a lot of things I should not have done.. I finally understand thz feeling.. its rejected.. its disappointment.. its sadness.. its dejected.. and most impt of all.. thz is called shi1 lian4.. yi kai was right.. I should not have thought so much.. I myself was right.. I should not have too much hope in life.. but its all too late.. I have already experienced thz.. and I noe the feeling and will rmb it for life.. I will nv ever fall in love again.. and I hate guys.. not a guy on earth is good.. they are all cruel creatures who dun have any feelings and they dun care abt others feelings.. Wen Kai........ I noe.. its time to juz.. let go.. and go on with life..............I'll nv forget him and the amount of hurt he brought............
Zinc @ 10:05 pm
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