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My inner child is ten years old!
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Zinc @ 11:49 am
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Saturday, June 05, 2004
The Day After
How I wish I could juz sleep and after one night, pretend that nothing had happened.. wanting smses me and asked if I sent the correct msg to her.. and later she and wendy replied “ you alright oready arhz?”
How can that ever happen.. how can I be alright? If it was so easy, then I would not have been harping on it since 1st jan.. it has been 5 mths.. and now its not even been 5 days and u think I’m alright? How I wish.. I juz noe, things will nv be the same again.. I juz cant force out a smile anymore.. its tiring.. I juz cant.. Everything has taken a turn for the worse.. I have nv felt this empty and helpless before.. no one can help me.. thinking back.. it was better to juz keep on thinking abt it.. then sometimes juz feel happi to think that I have a little chance.. but now.. its no longer possible.. its horrible.. this feeling is truly horrible.. why is time passing so damned slow?? I have decided.. that its natural that guys are good to us.. the fact is, they muz be… cuz they are guys.. with this in mind.. I can ensure that I will not get hurt again.. I will be hard-hearted.. who cares? Elinae is smart.. she does things to ensure that she doesn’t get hurt.. I shld learn from her.. she’s forever so happi.. I’m going to build a wall around my heart.. dun expect me to feel sorry for anyone.. so wad if everyone hates me? As long as I dun get hurt again, I dun care..
It’s the holidays.. and I noe that life will never be the same again.. Christmas will be so boring and bland this year.. I dun yearn for anything.. I dun wanna see him again.. let him disappear from my life.. I dun wanna be reminded.. wad else can I hope for? Nothing.. if only I can juz bury my head in books and study and study.. Why? Why? I hate my life.. you cant have high hopes in life.. cuz if you do.. u will definitely be disappointed.. lyk mi…………
Zinc @ 10:33 pm
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Friday, June 04, 2004
Finally Understood Thz Feeling..
Today started off very nicely.. was up by 8.30.. then left the house abit late but was still able to reach there 5 mins earlier.. although we could not find Peranakan Place Museum, we were able to go to Emerald Hill.. at first we were unable to get into ppl's houses to interview.. but finally, one lady let us into her house.. then subsequently.. we were able to go into other ppl's houses, like there was one which was actuallli a office cum residential area,.. then there was a man who had a peranakan house.. but his house was fully re-renovated.. so it din retain the peranakan features.. then there was another lady.. she and her dog answered the door.. the dog was cute.. then she was very friendly too. . wanteng and I went on the swing.. then I always warn them got car.. then they laugh.. dunno why oso..
We actually walk to emerald hill… then realise that the museum was not there.. then we walk out to orchard road.. then too far.. so we decided to walk back to emerald hill.. then while walking.. we were very hot.. so we bought an ice cream fr mcdonalds.. tastes sort of funny.. the ice cream was hard.. but still quite nice larhz.. then we went to take neoprints after wanting had eaten her lunch.. we wanted to go bowling.. but time too short and place too crowded.. then we went to take the knight bus.. then it was very fun.. then we realised that the restaurant that we were supposed to go to for lunch was closing at 2.30.. and it was already 1.30.. we still needed to take a mrt to paya lebar and take taxi.. so not enuf time le.. then in the end nv go.. went to shop at John Little.. then worried that I wld meet my mum.. cuz she said she will go there too.. in the end nv meet..
After that wanteng went off.. actually is we went off first.. we went to city hall.. then we went to the food junction to eat lunch.. minced meat noodle.. then walk to Asian Civilisation Museum.. then it was juz supposed to be a 5-min walk.. but we turned at the wrong place twice.. then go one big round.. then in the end landed up next to St andrew's cathedral.. then had to walk back.. then in the end found it.. then cannot use camera.. then had to copy everything.. then we walked back to city hall.. then we had ice-cream.. I had durain.. then Elaine had raspberry.. which she pronounced as ras-p-berry.. then we actuallli wanted to go to Suntec.. but we were still eating our ice-creams.. then we went back to Raffles City.. then we went to the food junction again.. this time we ate dim sum.. not really larhz.. cuz I had carrot cake and wanqin had spring roll.. not really very nice larhz.. then Elaine went to buy hot longan dessert.. wanqin had a grass jelly drink.. then they din wanna go home.. so I bought a char siew bao and ate slowly until it was time.. then we went off..
On the way.. me and my dumb mouth.. started talking abt the present I was going to give him.. then I started to miss him.. then on the mrt they say since I do miss him.. I shld sms him.. so I smsed that I need someone to talk to.. would u be that special someone.. please? Then he replied ya.. wad happened.. then I told him I call him at nite.. then he say at nite not free.. then I ask him why he always say he not free to me.. izit onli to me.. then Elaine added that I shld tell the truth.. then she help me type.. do u noe I lyk u!? at the end.. then he........ Said......... but I dun like u.. get it? I onli treat u as a god-sis..
I.. din have any feelings.. I grabbed my pillow.. then my big bear.. why izit that he onli tell mi now.. why did he drop those hints in the first place.. a tear dropped.. then wanqin called.. I din really wanna talk now.. so I told her tt.. then I mass mailed the 5 of them.. I told them wad happened and told them thst I dun really wanna talk now.. I dun have that feeling.. then Elaine smsed me saying that she will always be there for me.. I din noe why.. but once I saw that, I burst into tears.. I dun wanna give him the present anymore.. let Elaine do it.. I dun wanna give it anymore.. I dun wanna see him.. I shall juz take it that I have nv known him.. why?? Why din it be that that tym.. I din go on the cruise? I din go to langkawi? There’s a lot of things I should not have done.. I finally understand thz feeling.. its rejected.. its disappointment.. its sadness.. its dejected.. and most impt of all.. thz is called shi1 lian4.. yi kai was right.. I should not have thought so much.. I myself was right.. I should not have too much hope in life.. but its all too late.. I have already experienced thz.. and I noe the feeling and will rmb it for life.. I will nv ever fall in love again.. and I hate guys.. not a guy on earth is good.. they are all cruel creatures who dun have any feelings and they dun care abt others feelings.. Wen Kai........ I noe.. its time to juz.. let go.. and go on with life..............I'll nv forget him and the amount of hurt he brought............
Zinc @ 10:05 pm
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Thursday, June 03, 2004
9 Grueling Hours FINALLY OVER!!
Yo yo.. heyhey.. back again.. hahaz.. again using word doc.. mum getting suspicious of me.. ask me why everytime go online.. then type type type.. wad the hell am I doing?? Then she will try and see.. as if she will understand lohz.. anywayz.. muz be alert.. anytime she will come over now.. cuz I typing faster then usual.. normally do exposition cant possibly type so fast one ritez?? Muz think and plan.. that tym she came over and ask mi why my compo got so much mistakes.. sigh.. she juz have too much free time on hand.. tsk tsk..
Okie.. first.. give updates on yesterdays buffet.. okie.. so actually wanted to bring my black sling bag.. then mum kicked up such a big fuss and threatened not to let me go.. okay lohz.. wadeva.. juz give u more load tts all.. then I wanted to wear sports shoe.. then she oso kicked up a big fuss.. wah lioaz lohz.. alright larhz!! Wear the other pair then wear lo.. wah kao.. so old hag lo.. then guess wad happened at the restaurant?? It was so damned embarrassing!! The sole of my shoe came out!!!! Then how?? Cant go eat.. cant do anything.. and I was damned mad at my mum.. I told her to by hook or by crook, get me another pair of shoes.. I dun care.. cuz it is all her fault lohz!! Then in the end my dad pulled out the other sole oso.. I tot these type of things onli happen in shows lohz.. then the heel wld come off.. then will have hero.. haha.. but then horz.. it din come out like that larhz.. hahaz.. then I din wanna wear that shoe.. cuz it was very ugly w/o the sole.. so I made my mom wear it instead.. then I wear hers.. hahaz.. then not only she cant do anything about the Monday incident.. I will still have a lot to settle with her.. whee..
I juz found out that my estimation damn lan.. cuz I go for CIP today.. then I muz go all the way fr toa payoh to bukit batok.. so will take a longer time.. so I estimated it to be 1 hr.. then I gave myself 15 minutes allowance.. then guess wad?? I was supposed to meet my fren at 8.15 and I reached there at 7.45.. so I had to wait for about half an hour.. how bad can it get?? Grr.. then I still had to wake up at 6.30.. dun care.. I will wake up at 7 next time.. who cares.. *sticks tongue out* then very tiring one lehz the CIP.. the kids all very naughty lohz.. I am nv ever going to give birth next time.. the kids are such a pain!! Then somemore they are so spoilt and pampered lohz.. oh ya.. then today came 2 new kids.. bro and sis.. that only come for 1 wk.. then they very guai1 larhz.. nicer then the other kids.. then they have hp u noe!! Wah lao.. so high class lohz.. then the mom even came round at lunch time to take a look at them.. sigh.. so fortunate.. budden these 2 kids horz.. I dunno.. the others dun really like them.. I think is cuz my fren and I always play with them.. tchers oso favour them.. so the others jealous.. then got one little boy kept on telling my fren.. I dun friend u liaoz.. haha.. so funny.. and very.. you4 zhi4.. haha.. then beginning to dislike them a lot.. got one guy.. he like.. act mischievous lohz.. actually he noe how to do one.. then he always tell mi the wrong ans.. then another one is dun bother to do.. always ask mi for answer.. then another one is dun wanna coorperate.. he keep on talking.. then disturd others.. then another one keep on listening.. then tell him to do his work he keep on insisting that he din talk.. wah kao..
Got another girl.. is she always act like she got authority like that.. everytime ask other ppl to do this do that.. be qiuet.. dun disturb her.. wah lao.. act guai1 lohz.. then got the sec 1 one act dua tao.. like big boss liddat.. then they gang up against my fren and I to win us at UNO.. they shuffle the deck so that their own ppl will get the cards they want.. but when it comes to us.. they shuffle it so that we juz dun get our cards.. they try and make it not obvious.. but it is very obvious lohz.. dumb.. then they make us help them bring lunch from the main child care centre.. which is like.. quite far away.. got a void deck.. playground and fitness centre in btw.. then carry the rice and fruits back.. tsk tsk. Then that was at 11.30.. then we quickly went off for lunch.. we are supposed to come back by 1.. quite a lot of time larhz.. then we had to walk quite far b4 we found a coffee shop.. then only like.. got 3 stalls lohz… then the auntie go and 2 stalls alone.. wah lao.. so slow.. then meixuan eat until like wanna puke liddat.. not the food is horrible.. but she thinks its too oily.. actually I think it was okay.. then we realise lunch break is actually only half an hr..wah lao lohz.. how can?? Is the tcher nice then let us go for so long one.. then we muz clear up after the kids.. wash their cups and dishes.. then the tcher veri nice.. give us durian to eat.. then later we found out is actually not supposed to give one.. so the tcher veri nice lehz..
Now at home.. back veri tired.. haiz.. tmr still got one whole day to go.. sigh.. nvm.. today was debating with meixuan to see shawn yue or ediosn nicer.. haha.. inm my eyes of cuz Edison larhz.. shawn got the qian4 bian1 look.. hahaz.. Nicholas tse betta.. but edison still the best.. but nvm.. sigh.. tired le..go to my rooom and look at the posters all around.. whee.. Edison rawkz..whee.. =)
Zinc @ 10:01 pm
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Vesak Day..
Vesak day.. hmmz.. this is the first tym I am talking about thz festival on my blog.. hahaz.. wad do I expect.. this is only the first year of mi blogging!! Whee.. hahaz.. okie.. crapping bigtime.. cant help it.. I'm bored.. and I cant even go online.. actually I'm typing this on word dco.. then later copy and paste.. pathetic ritez?? Rite.. hahaz.. okie.. getting veri annoyed by the red and green zigzag lines below all my grammar mistakes!! Argh!! Butt off!! Stop bothering me!! I've oready put there dun check grammar lohz.. but still checking.. I giving u time to slack lehz!! Stop!! *3 lines* it still is lyk that.. grr.. nvm..
Actualli.. not much to tok about.. I'm no superstar.. so my life veri the boring de.. haiz.. okie.. will keep thz entry short then.. it will make wanting happi.. then she wun read until so sianz.. haha.. whee.. anything to please my frenz.. whee.. okie.. back to track.. still u muz forgive me for being so crazy.. hehehe.. u wun noe what I wld do if I go crazy.. that's y ppl always say.. they would rather de2 zui4 xiao3 ren2 than to de2 zui4 nu3 ren2.. haha..
Oh.. frustrating.. had to wake up at 7.30 thz morning.. public holiday lehz.. still muz wake up so early.. duhz.. then went temple to pray.. then come home nothing to do.. so sleep.. but actually nv sleep larhz.. juz lie there close my eyes.. then toss here toss there.. haha.. my bedsheet very smooth.. whee.. very nice to tang3.. whee.. then when its time to eat, I get up!! Haha.. if thz goes on.. eat then sleep.. I will grow even fatter.. wah!! No way jose!! I'm not going to let what terence said bcome a fact!! NO NO NO NO NO!!!!! okie.. wad else??
Nothing much.. so now sitting in front of the comp, waiting for 6 o’clock to come quick.. then I can go bath and change and make my way to rits carlton to have a buffet dinner!! Whee.. its actually wedding buffet.. but I think veddy the qi2 guai4 lehz.. normally buffet is in the afternoon one.. then its at the groom's house there.. then normally if its is at nite.. then it wld be a banquet.. somemore so hi-class hotel somemore.. haiya dunno larhz.. got smth for me to eat then can liaoz.. hahaz.. whee..
Juz finished one of my lit ws.. the chap 3 one.. actually I think its quite lamez lohz.. haiyo.. why cant they juz let us read.. bleag.. then my house thz keyboard damned slow lehz.. press the up-down button move fr one end of a sentence to the other end can take me a whole 5 mins.. wah kao.. =S then I'm supposed to be doing chap 8 that ws.. but anyway.. mom not looking.. see mi constantly typing and I'm not on the net.. so she presumes that I'm doing my work.. heh heh.. finished my Chinese book report yesterday.. now wondering wad will happen to the group book report.. nvm.. thz Friday then say..then thz stoopid Microsoft word doc helper juz gave me help that cannot be used.. how bad can it get.. tsk tsk tsk..
Okie.. than guess what?? Now I juz found out that thz is not a wedding buffet.. it's a buffet to celebrate someone’s granddaughter FIRST MONTH.. wah lao lohz.. thz ppl sian2 money too much izit?? Gimme larhz.. first month oso muz celebrate and give buffet.. why not when the daughter is toilet-trianed then oso give buffet larhz.. then.. learn to walk oso.. then learn to call mom and dad oso..wah lao lohz.. haha.. nvm.. is their money.. none of my business.. I go there and eat only.. haha..
Okie.. shall stop here.. will give updates of that buffet tmr.. like hu got cake smashed I their face.. who wore the sexiest dress.. who took the most takeaways.. haha.. wahahaha.. okie.. oh.. edsion so shuai man.. haha.. whee.. =)
Zinc @ 9:57 pm
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Tuesday, June 01, 2004
My 1st Free Day Of The Holidays..
Today ish a free day!! whee.. so i decided to wake up late.. hahaz.. i woke up at abt 10.15 today.. which was so far the latest..not much of an apetite.. so juz ate cake..
Yesterday mrs chew called mi lehz.. so scary lohz.. she wanted to know why cant i make it on nxt wed for the CIP.. so wad lohz.. at first its she sae that we dun need to go in the hols 1 lohz.. then now hafta go.. so in the end ritez.. meixuan and i decided to go on 3rd and 15th of june.. sigh.. after thz.. i dun ever wanna have children anymore.. they put mi off manz.. now.. I HATE KIDS!!
Okay.. then got nothig to do.. so i decided to start on hw.. chinese first.. so i read the book.. then going to start writting soon.. as soon as i finish using the net.. haha.. then did skipping in the morn after haveing fruits and b4 eating lunch.. alll cuz of tt stoopid terence ang.. damn him.. grr.. so i skip skip skip.. then tired.. so i went in to rest and later have lunch.. then at abt 2.30.. i went to do a complete workout.. chen lili teach us one.. then at 3.10.. i went to skip again.. haiz.. all cuz of tose words that terence said.. grr.. actualli very frustrating lehz.. mom and my family all say i'm fat.. then wanqin they all always groan when i sae i'm fat.. veddy the wad lehz.. okie.. i dun care wad others sae le.. i muz get in shape.. dun care.. bu guan.. *sticks tongue out*
So.. thats abt all larhz.. will tok more tmr.. then eating lollipop now.. hahaz.. whee.. edison's the best!! =)
Zinc @ 4:08 pm
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